जनक उवाच ॥ कायकृत्यासहः पूर्वं ततो वाग्विस्तरासहः। अथ चिन्तासहस्तस्माद् एवमेवाहमास्थितः॥१२-१॥
janaka uvāca || kāyakṛtyāsahaḥ pūrvaṁ tato vāgvistarāsahaḥ| atha cintāsahastasmād evamevāhamāsthitaḥ ||12-1||
Janaka said: Formerly unable to bear bodily activity, then unable to bear extensive talk, then unable to bear thought itself — therefore, thus indeed I remain established.
Modern Reflection
This chapter opens Janaka's own narrated history, a rare autobiographical moment in the text, tracing a three-stage exhaustion: kāya-kṛtya-asahaḥ, unable to bear bodily activity, then vāg-vistara-asahaḥ, unable to bear extended speech, then cintā-asahaḥ, unable to bear thought itself. A senior bureaucrat in Delhi, months from retirement, describes an almost identical sequence: first he became unable to sit through the physical marathon of ceremonial functions, then unable to tolerate the extended small talk they required, and finally found even his own planning and strategizing thoughts about the department exhausting in a way they never used to be. He worried this was depression until reading this verse, which frames the sequence not as decline but as a specific, orderly withdrawal that culminates in āsthitaḥ, a settled establishment, rather than collapse.